Rare solitude

Ever since having a overzealous boy terrorizing the household every inch of space, ‘personal bubble’ or ‘solitude’ are rarely associated with me. In a bigger picture, this IS a good thing – seemingly that I am never lonely or alone. But if you were to scrutinize the situation with a magnifying glass, you will notice that, if a human is devoid of his own personal space and thoughts, problems will start to arise.

One will become more irritable and burnt out with his current life. And we certainly do not want to feel jaded or exhausted with life, seeing as we are still young and there should be more to life than a rat race and a battle for that particular piece of cheese.

Nonetheless, we need to remind ourselves that, whether in marriages or relationships, each of us need a personal space. A period of time for us to step back, retreat to the space bubble and reflect on what had happened, and thoughts of what could have happened and how well we could have dealt. It’s like a relay feedback mechanism.

After being deprived of such privilege due to the arrival of JD, we (hubby and I) have sacrificed a majority of our time to provide a sound and healthy environment for JD’s upbringing and welfare. Not that we are regretting the decision of having JD, as fore mentioned, Hubby and I are reaching a point whereby we wish to have a little more personal time, not just with each other, but also to reconnect with ourselves respectively.

Therefore in this year of 2010, with JD being a little more independent and extended family members being more at ease to take care of JD; Hubby embarked onto his cycling terrain! For that reason, he has turned more tanned (ahem!). He joined this cycling team near to our housing estate whereby weekly they’ll meet up to cycle. It isn’t an easy feat for him, seeing that he did not train up prior before the whole 30km cycling trail. But his determination to complete the entire trail with his team mates, and his passion to cycling, touched me.

So for the sake of my own health and future, I finally started exercising. Impressive, isn't it! It has always been on my mind to lead a healthier lifestyle; problem is that, I have an incredible good way of procrastinating. The day I told hubby that I wanted to go jogging, he must have thought I was pulling a joke as again. Even after I went for a second jog days later, he was at awed. To be honest, I am at awed at myself too.

Strangely I find night time jogging to be extremely calming and rewarding. Since we stay in a well guarded housing community, with security guards at the entrance and constant surveillances by the guards and that there is a designated exercise track whereby vehicles aren’t allowed to enter; it is extremely safe to be jogging around there, but of course I will remain vigilant still.

I love the entire feel of cool breeze brushing onto my skin, the moonlight shining down and reflecting my own sweat, the music I love blasting into my ears from my ipod, my own awareness of my heart thumping away for more oxygen, and the realization that with each step I am moving towards a healthier me.

In addition to all, I stumbled upon a fact that the jog gives me an opportunity to my own solitude. Something I haven’t been having for some time, and something that I have now learnt to treasure a lot. It might not be a big issue to some people, but this brings me back to sanity and injects an amount of peace to my soul.

With me being happier and healthier, my complexion became much better and it shows on my self-pic! By the way, I absolutely adore my new hair cut, but I detest the amount of time that goes into styling it! Argh! It takes me a freaking hour to volumise it. And that is not inclusive of the makeup time yet! Hence, nowadays I'm doing the simple basic makeup. Speaking of makeup, I will try to come up with a mini-tutorial on how to use Volume/Maxi-curling mascaras! Seriously, I got a shock to realise that all these while of using mascaras, I have used it WRONGLY!

Stay tuned okay! :)

Lastly, pick up an exercise that strikes ur chord well and stick to it. Believe me. It'll help you in every little ways :)